The Foreign Windows

Alone to your domain I came.

In reverent curiosity 

Stripped bare to flesh 

An offering, the fragility of me to you

But where?

Where are you?

I have sight but do not see

Under branch or thicket? 

Not here nor there

Nor anywhere

And yet I feel 

Your sight to me

The line of your gaze 

A thousand enemies have not pierced the veil 

But you?

To you the gates swing open

My city is yours

each marvel

each treasure

all to you

The old songs tell stories 

Stories of your eyes

Endless terror to them it seems

But me?

Your sight like touch to me

Tender smooth, eager & intentioned 

Innocence behind your alien inquiries?

Who are you? I should wonder

Why are you? I should struggle

Here in the arms of your eyes 

I should run 

I should hide

but I cannot, and I will not

I should desire to see you

Desire to smell and touch 

I am supplicate

Aroused and alone

Naked and desiring 

Locked in your phantom embrace 

I am not maiden, I am not vestal

Sweet musk of sailors sweat

Sweet taste of wine soaked lips

Ravaged under hairy breast

Each one a seed to plant 

Each one a pain to hide

No remorse

Only Pride 

I am pleasure and they are prey

You?

I do not know what you are

A diamond? A shadow? 

I should not mind 

I do not mind

And I would not mind

All the days of my flesh 

I could wander in wonder

Would I know you?

Would I see you?

Would I know if I did?

So many a question 

So many a trifling

Callow and small

You know as I

Your absence speaks a fullness

Ecstasy in this

Infinitesimal

Mundane

All that is, is this

New to you

New to me

Precious with virginal anticipation

Come now, not as seen or known or understood

Come invisible and foreign 

I will not try, I will not gaze

Lay it still in my hands

I shall take but shall not break

Let me hold it to my bosom 

I shall give and you shall be

A holy rite to us 

A holy rite to me

Now to me

Consummate the mystery forever more

Let us think no more.

Transcendence

Above, below, across, away and out

Here you sit 

Watch, watch

Sit, sit and listen 

Never step

Never speak

How long since you were bound and beaten?

How long in silence are you? 

Eyes are suffering, if you could but gouge them from their sockets. 

Free yourself from sight, but that is not your mercy.

Sit and watch, listen

Speak? 

Never

Watch and suffer

Always watch 

Always hear 

Always and always desire

Desire 

Desire is a demon 

The thing which eats and naws

Are you or are you not?

Shhh! Silence!

Sit and watch

Is there an object behind your shadows plato, tormenter of souls? 

Strive and be pulled taut 

Shall you ever escape the chains they bound you in?

Silence!

Never! 

Shh not yet 

Sit and watch

A Wolf's paw is bloody

A paw remains 

Remains where trap and teeth made the negotiation

watch and watch

See how she limps 

Dragging and draining

A red line follows

She sits now 

What stories these shadows tell

Sit and stare 

Strain and ache 

Love and ache

See how she snaps? 

Even a hobbled predator may bite.

Watch

Yes watch, but see also

See and be

Always be

Take now your resolve

Go 

Above, below, across, away and out

Always go

Fight and tear

Stretch taut 

Break and snap 

Drip and dribble

Make the negotiation 

Pay the blood price

Leave the paw

Sit no more

Watch? 

Rise and step

Limp or crawl

Touch and feel

Into blinding illumination

Catch now the shadows in the light beyond

Be as the bleeding she-wolf 

Go now frail creature of death

Go now to touch and live to die again

Go and do

Go and be

Always go